On Thursday, Thom Thought...
Lately (like last night mowing the lawn), it's occurred to me what I was at ML to find out: what it meant to trust yourself. The real and important lesson of which was to leave ML.
And it also occurred to me that I have Patricia's spiritual dictatorialism to thank for it. Her demands that people trust her and her alone forced the issue -- eventually creating and putting me in a do-or-die situation. Do I trust my sense of what's right -- trust myself -- and walk away from ML? Or not and lose myself. I chose to walk. Take other paths. And got a good feeling for my inner sense of things and the value of following it. It was scary at first -- kind of like going places you've never been relying only on sense of direction -- but it's gotten easier over the years. And gotten me to a pretty good place.
Amazing what cutting the grass can do, besides a good-looking lawn...